Oh man. I have ignored you for so long. Why? Well.. I've been wondering that myself lately. I guess its because I have't had much to say.
I've changed a lot since the last time I posted something on here. A lot in my life has changed, and thats ok! It took me a long time to accept that change, and be ok with it. Hence, why I have not written.My house is oh so silent today, and that silence gets my brain thinking. Thinking about life, my goals, my expectations for me and those around me, life, boys, life, friends, future. My brain is just racked with thoughts. It's over whelming sometimes.
Then I remember. Oh how I remember to stop, take a deep breath and look up. The silence of my home, lets me listen.
Listen deeply.
He hears me.
He listens to all those thoughts running through me. And he cares. He knows how it makes me feel. He knows the heartache I feel and he loves me, he understands when even I have a hard time gaining that understanding.
In Alma 22-26 we were talking about how they buried their swords and weapons of war. I was asked a question that I pondered for a long time. What is a weapon I need to burry deep? I thought hard about this. I decided my weapon I need to burry deep down in the ground is my lack of faith.
Faith is one of my biggest struggles. Not lack of love or caring. Its faith. Faith that he does in fact hear my prayers and hear the pleadings of my heart.
I love you, and I will try to keep blogging more often!
“Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow.”
― Mary Anne Radmacher
